Emi Observations at 11 weeks

Emi is 11 weeks old! Wow it's hard to believe. She has come so far from that little tiny five pound preemie!  Her personality has blossomed.  She is going to be quite strong willed and very opinionated.  But so are all my girls.  She has no noticeable issues.  When I take her to the doctor they find her meeting her milestones and exceeding her  counterparts on growth.  This is all good news to me.  Getting from there to here has not been easy.   It has been a 24 hour a day challenge.  I wouldn't trade a second of the time I have had with this child.  She is amazing.  We click.  When I say that I mean we know what the other is thinking without words exchanged.  Jeff calls me the 'baby whisperer' lol.  It is understandable since we have in inseparable now for nearly 12 weeks.  I am still holding her and monitoring her sleep at night but during the day I leave her sleeping for a few minutes at a time while I do chores around the house.  I still see residual issues with the drug exposure.  Nothing anyone else would see but I know her both inside and out.  She has little panic attacks.  Her heart races and she starts breathing almost in a hyperventilating type to state.  I try to take her to our room to sleep but she will refuse to go to sleep until I take her back to her familiar area ( the couch) and then she will be asleep in less than 30 seconds.  If she gets upset (for instance in the car seat and I can't get to her immediately) she will panic and scream like an animal if I can't get to her in time.   She is developing an attachment to me that excludes anyone else being able to console her.  She is still hypersensitive but that is getting less all the time.  I know she is healing from the first eight months of her life.  I expect she will be completely whole and completely sound in all areas.  I will write a book for others someday if time proves she is healed.  I think I know how to reach these drug exposed children.  At least I knew how to reach Emi and I believe others can be helped as well.  Praying daily for the future of this child of God.