Beautiful Things - Thank you Jesus! This is for you Josiah

All this pain
I wonder if I’ll ever find my way
I wonder if my life could really change at all
All this earth
Could all that is lost ever be found
Could a garden come up from this ground at all

You make beautiful things
You make beautiful things out of the dust
You make beautiful things
You make beautiful things out of us

All around
Hope is springing up from this old ground
Out of chaos life is being found in You

You make beautiful things
You make beautiful things out of the dust
You make beautiful things
You make beautiful things out of us

You make beautiful things
You make beautiful things out of the dust
You make beautiful things
You make beautiful things out of us

You make me new, You are making me new
You make me new, You are making me new

You make beautiful things
You make beautiful things out of the dust
You make beautiful things
You make beautiful things out of us

Just more Waiting

Many of you have asked if there has been any progress on our case or if we have heard anything and the answer if a big N-O.   I know they are doing everything they can to get as many children on the list as possible, I just don't know if it's going to happen or when.  So still we wait expectantly for news. 

Waiting

Waiting, waiting, waiting. It seems so painless.  I am a patient person or at least I appear that way.  Waiting I have learned is one of God's hardest tests to pass.  There was a time a few weeks ago I can truly say I was passing the test.  Then I allowed doubt to creep in and failed this all important assignment.  I am back on the road to allowing God to work through this time and lean not on my own understanding.  I know it is bringing about other motivations and paths never before noticed.  I must be patient before God because what he has brought us to he will see us through.  I don't know what's at the end of the journey but I do know it will be what is best (somehow).  I am believing in the next two weeks we will get the answers to a lot of our questions.  I believe either way it will be revealed what God has been orchestrating for the past several weeks.  I am praying not my will but thy will be done.  Though the storms rage and the rains come I will know the peace that surpasses all understanding.

Osteogenesisimperfecta VS. Osteochrondrodysplasia

These two very long words are what is holding up our chance to adopt our little guy.  I look it up. Google it. Study it. Call bone doctors.  Yet nothing brings the two together in a way that we can adopt him at this point.  It is so amazingly frustrating.  If when he was diagnosed early on with a broader diagnosis his condition could fall under Osteochrondrodysplasia.  It is in fact the less precise diagnosis of bone disease and OI falls somewhat underneath it as a sub class disease.  It is hard to believe this could be the difference in him getting to be adopted or left to be institutionalized.  I believe they are working on his classification.  I believe that one day soon I will get information that will make all this right.  Still the waiting is hard. Thank you for your prayers as we wait expectantly on that next miracle.

Quick Update

In another twist of fate, when I got home last night I saw where I had an email stating that adoptions for 'the list' of special needs  would remain open during this time while things are being overhauled in country.  This doesn't totally affect our adoption at this point but it is wonderful news for the families who will get to bring home their children in a few weeks instead of several months.  For us it means in order for our file to be submitted, his special need must be on the list.  Wouldn't you know osteochondrodisplasia IS on the list.  It's a Q77 and osteogenesisimperfecta is a Q78 and NOT on the list.  UuuuuGGGG!  So frustrating!  His SN is probably more severe than the one that made the list.  I don't know how they pick and choose.  I just hope and pray someone is there advocating for him.  Things have been crazy.  I'm just so thankful for good news coming to those who are so close.  Keep praying.  Surely there's another miracle that has yet to unfold!

No More Submissions

Well I found out that I missed an email telling everyone that June 30 was the last day the SDA was allowing submissions.  Ironic that my dossier I believe was the only one there that didn't get submitted and I didn't get the email.  Oh well no one knows what tomorrow holds.  Now I must believe that his special need will be added to the 'list' of adoptable children.  I must also believe that no new rules will affect our ability to adopt.  I must also wait out the shut down of a predictable three months.  My precious dossier that has our life story as well as our income and other private information is who knows where and will end up who knows where and will likely have to be done all over.  This is devasting news.  I likely had the best adoption timeline in history.  It took 28 days from acceptance to en route.  There were many miracles along the way.  I will not give up or give in to the emotional toll this is taking.  There is a greater plan and I am part of it.  I am excited to see how it unfolds.  I can't wait for God to loose the chains of injustice and untie the chords of the yoke, to set the oppressed free and break every  yoke.  Isaiah 58; 6.  Hang on Josiah we're coming to get you!!!!!!